~Tandokude

I tend to jump into things head first and with my eyes closed.
Usually that ends pretty badly and with me in a wreck.
I have a tendency to keep fighting for something even when it's painfully obvious it's not worth the effort.
I tend to shoot myself in the foot that way on a regular basis.
You would think that would be a reason to stop taking such risks.
Right?

Wrong.

I never get how people can just sit there, day in and day out. Completely unhappy and miserable but never making a single effort to get out of it. Even when they know what they want and they know what to do to get it they're too comfortable in their shitty little safe bubble.
I never understood that. What's so bad about trying and risking possible failure that it's preferable to just stay where you are and not even making an effort to get that life that they want. If I want something i'll do whatever it takes to get it and yes, 99% of the time that blows up in my face but at least I fucking tried. How is certain failure better than possible failure? The answer to that is simple. It isn't. If you convinced yourself otherwise you're lying to yourself. Trying and failing is nowhere near as bad as having to live with the knowledge that you were too much of a coward to stand up and fight for something. Took a risk for something you wanted. There is no excuse for such behaviour.

If you have a dream or a goal or just something you want more then anything in the world then how can you just not do anything to get there? How could anyone even fool themselves into thinking they're actually alive when all they're doing is just barely existing? And yes, there is a difference between existing and actually being alive. Being alive means going for what you want. Doing whatever you can to make sure you get the most you can possibly get out of life. Existing is just sticking around till you die. That's never going to cut it for me. I rather crash and burn till the day I croak then ever settle for less then what I want. I'd rather risk it all to get everything then settle with what I have because i'm too scared to go for what I want. I would never be able to settle for less than what I could have and i'll never be able to understand how anyone could think otherwise. I'll either die an old man, happy and surrounded by my loved ones or i'll die a lonely bum in some gutter somewhere. Either way, i'll be able to look myself in the eyes and say "I did everything I fucking could to be all I can be"
You get one shot at this whole being alive thing.
Wasting it away is pointless.


"I submit to you that if a man hasn't discovered something that he will die for, he isn't fit to live."

~ Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr.